OK, so I need to make a retraction on my journal here. I said a lot of things in my last entry that I want to take back and thoroughly apologize for. First off, most (and I say most, because it all was written in anger and I will not apologize for my emotions, no matter what.) of what I wrote was way off base. I read a few things in a few different status messages in a few different places and took them so far out of context that they didn't even remotely resemble what they started off as. Those things were pointed out to me and put in their original context and I admit that I was wrong in so many ways.

Second, although this isn't much of an excuse, I've been going through a lot of stress lately. I was uprooted from my home. I lost my job. And, obviously, my girlfriend left me. With that said, I wasn't thrown out, per se. I didn't have any choice but to leave, but it was either I left or she did and if she left I wouldn't have been able to keep the apartment with no job. So really, there weren't any options. I had to leave. The job was due to health issues and there wasn't much that could be done there either. The girlfriend... Well, I guess I just wasn't what she was looking for after all. Plus, there were a few issues between us that never would have been resolved. All in all, I've just had a string of bad luck that all hit at the same time and there was no warning and no way to avoid it.

Lastly, while I am still a little mad at her for doing what she did (and I don't see myself in the wrong for it. I have the right to be mad.), I also know that she says that she's happy with him. If she says that she's happy, I won't dispute that. Ultimately, I want her to be happy. I love her, so how could I want anything else for her, even if it's not with me.

With all that said, I will delete the last journal entry and be done with it. I apologize wholeheartedly and I meant none of what was written in the last entry. Please understand that I don't do this because I have to, I do it because I want to. Thanks for understanding.